Other Internal World Images
For last month's Expressive Arts Carnival, I had a few choices for what I was going to submit. Experiences shift so quickly. One minute I felt whole. Another I felt fragmented.
The above was the image I was going to submit. This is the normal way to represent my internal experience. Through shapes and colors which overlap in layers, sometimes blocking out any clear picture of what's really going on.
The other image I was going to submit was the unedited "Empty Chairs" photograph. The message here was alone and empty and separate. But it also held promise for what was to come (this was taken before a graduation ceremony). There is also strict order in the image.
Right before I submitted this image, I decided it needed to also portray the experience of being fragmented. So, the image was taken into Photoshop, cut up, and arranged in a more or less random pattern.
Here is the "Empty Chairs" photograph as seen by the camera (shot at f/3.2). The focus is on the section of chairs in the background which was where the boys sat separate from the girls.
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Hi Paul,
It's interesting seeing these images... they seem so different, but yet for some reason I get a similar feeling about them.
Looking at the first one, depending on the angle I view it at, I see the different colours either supporting, hiding or falling onto the heart and cross. It's interesting that the cross is going through the heart at one point... and there doesn't seem to be the grounding brown colour that has been present in your previous internal world images.
You say you did this awhile ago now, but as if I saw this as something you did today, I would be worried for you. Yes, we all know I'm a worrier :)
The second photo shows the emptiness, isolation and separateness really well. The colours don't give a sense of anticipation of the excitement to come from a graduation, but rather the gray lends itself to foreboding and loneliness.
Sorry, I know these are my perceptions and contexts being transposed onto your work, so they will never be accurate...
But looking at these two images makes be wish I could sit with you and support you in any way I could.
Please take care... with warm safe hugs
CG
Hi Castorgirl. Hmmm, I don't get a similar feeling from them. Although I think I know what you mean. I can at the same time feel very alone and empty and have there be a lot going on inside. I think your worry is not misplaced. But I will be okay. And thank you for thinking of me.
I see a bird.
Oh yeah, Michael. I can see that too. Totally unintended. I see lots of stuff when I look up at the clouds. That's so fun. And I like fooling my kids by saying things like "I see Taylor Swift in the clouds". They love that.
I can really relate to feeling alone, empty and separate. That sentence caused me to tear up. I also know the feeling of wholeness to fragmentation and being on that edge.
I find that the drawing is interesting in that it seems that each colored area is outlined and distinct almost like compartmentalizing things. I have difficulty seeing overlapping. Rather I see each colored area as quite distinct and separate. Just a thought.